an undertoe i did not fight
how could something ever be conquered twice?
...my greatest fear

I've never thrown anything away
I walked alongside my impossibilities
A funeral march into the ocean

When everything is on fire

say whatever helps your heart heal.
but you can't deny that smile that grows bigger every time you see me.
& as i see you fill all these voids,  its a bittersweet feeling knowing that i created them.

total revamp of layout.
hard work.
so pretty.

no work today! [yessss.] instead i went shopping with gran, riss, & adam. hahaha.

watched too many versions of party monster too many times.

made a deal with adam's dad to finish the basement by wednesday.
for fifty bucks.
should've checked out the basement before i made that deal.

why the fuck don't macs have a right-click button? it makes everything so much harder.

well, that was traumatizing.

atleast it's all over & i'm starting to chill out now.

i gotta get myself back & my act together. what better way, right?

i also gotta go to sleep. my eyes are killing me cause all i did today was play ssx tricky, read, & check up on some perez.

everything.

can we laugh about this in the morning?
can you call me with some great excuse?
like, 'baby, you'll never guess what happened...'
or, 'that's why why i couldn't call you...'
& it doesn't matter what comes after that
because it will always end the same way.
you could say a tidal wave washed over this town
& your phone died as it carried you away.
so where was i for all of this?
'you must have been asleep in your bed.'
so i'll stay quiet for some time,
just to play that over in my head
& i'll point out all your story's flaws
& make a display out your contradictions
& i'll scream & cry to make my point
& then i'll act indifferent.
but all of that means nothing
cause then you'll say 'baby, i swear...'
& the indifference starts to take over
& i'll hold my head & say i don't care.
& the whole day will start to catch up with me
& i start to throw the fight
& suddenly, i'm so tired
i have to stay the night.

7moz.

6moz. =D
♥

did you?
did you really?
did you do that?

i am not well now.
i am not well at all because of this.